Category Archives: Autobiographical

Trying to work this out

I set somebody on a path that rarely ends well. I got them interested in magick.  Magick is the fast food of spirituality at its best and a deep dark hole that one cannot climb out of at its worst. This particular friend has had a string of bad circumstances lately, some his fault, some an overpunishment by the system and some just unlucky. Now, I look at this friend: smart, independent, and things come easy for him. I don’t even think he knows how easy. I see a lot of myself in him except that he’s charming and knows how to make fast friends, whereas I….lack in that area. This friend spent a little time in prison, a little time in rehab, and a little time in a halfway house. He has not always made the best choices. I don’t know how to explain it. He has a good heart and a good head, but makes some really bad choices. I guess that may be the reason I see some of myself in him. In prison, he spent a lot of time in the bible. In the halfway house, he says that he spent a lot of time relying on God. I was thrilled to hear it and though I may not have been as encouraging as I should have been, it lifted me up to think that he had developed a relationship with The Christ while incarcerated. I thought that maybe he would get a handle on things in his life before I got a handle on things in mine. Since, he got out, he has let me know that he has resumed studies into things that people (not all people, but certainly the ones I care about) should not be studying. He has started reading the Keys of Solomon, is rereading Israel Regardie’s The Golden Dawn, and is undertaking Undoing Yourself by Christpher Hyatt. Now, if he was like me, it would be a little bad. If he is reading out of intellectual curiosity, it may have an effect on his spirit, but he wouldn’t be channeling powerful energies, deceptive energies. On the other hand, this guy is a little more proactive than I am. He sees the promise of metaphysical understanding and maybe the promise of bending wills and changing realities and he says, “Why not give it a shot?”. Now, I’m the one who lent him my copy of Golden Dawn nary six years ago. I’m the one that coaches him when he has questions about eradicating ego. I’m the one he comes to when he wants to spitball ideas or get a different interpretation on something he’s read. How do I, after all that, get him to understand that Spiritual Enlightenment best be left to someone else and that (even worse) Invocations of Spirits (and demons?) is a really bad idea. I don’t even think half of it works without years of training, but what about the stuff that does? I sincerely want to tell him to get away from that stuff, and if he won’t, at least have him taught by someone that is more knowledgeable than I. That stuff can be bad for body and soul and though the body is temporary, I hate to see him lose his soul. I know that nobody reads this stuff, but if you do, do you have any suggestions?

I can’t help it!?!

Does anyone else check their order status when they order something from Amazon? I do it like three times a day until my order arrives. I do it even when I pre-order something and it doesn’t come out for another ten days and I’m too cheap to get anything but the super saver shipping. I have a serious obsessive compulsive thing going on here… I may need psychiatric help (more psychiatric help)…Oh dear, I feel that I must go check again and Alice: Madness Returns doesn’t come out until June 14th. What is the deal. I did order it early enough to get it for $45. The price has gone up to $59.99. That was awesome. Inever get the the better deal on things . I did order Catherine for $57 and now it’s $60 but that doesn’t feel like quite the savings….I’m off to Amazon.

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